I've slept most of the day and, sneezed, coughed and spluttered my way through the rest, barely moving from the sofa .
i feel somewhat cheated since the beautiful day has now faded without event, and the housework and projects no further in advancement. i feel like a day has been stolen from my limited mortal allowance.
my limbs hurt, my chest feel like it has a grown man sitting on it, my insides are tender and wracked, my co-ordination is off center (trying to rub my eye took three attempts to find my eye), my cognitive processes are slowed, my whole being heavy and groggy, my nose constantly wet, my tongue dry, and my breathing laborious.
... so this is fun... :/
I've spent most of my awake time on Tumblr, since it didn't require too much thought or effort... press the love heart, press re-blog.
i haven't eaten and don't really want anything from the slim pickings left in the kitchen, don't have any money to buy anything to eat, and really don't have the energy to cook.
so i stole my daughters sweet she had left behind. (she gets so much she wont miss it).
NEXT..............
spent a little while looking at my "weight journey" pictures today, and added some "inspiration"/ goal body types.
the last one was taken only a few weeks ago, and the jeans belong to my other half, who is very lithe (not skinny... slender).
that's my journey so far from a U.K 14/16 size 32" waist to a U.K 8/10 size 27" waist.
I'm aiming to lose another stone and... a little bit more, from 14 stone exactly to now 10 stone 10 ish.
i wanna be about 9 and a half stone, with a 25" waist and be a toned size 8, because i still have my wobbly Mummy tummy, my stretch marks i don't mind, the wobbly bit, i do mind, and my "bingo wings", that relaxed loose bit under the arm.
so next are some inspirational images of the body types i aspire to...but, i know i will never look exactly like anyone else because i have thick thighs and wide hips, i also have wide ribs and a thick back (asthmatic build..looks a bit like a swimmer build).
I'm an advocate of always aspiring to be the best version of MYSELF, and compeating with MYSELF.
these images are ones i collected from around the net so if they belong to you and you're unhappy about them being used on here please feel free to message me and I'll take them down or credit you.
after looking at pics of flat tummies, and finding pro-ana (pro anorexia) pics, i had a lengthy discussion with my partner on how girls from a young ages have it drummed into them, "no one likes a fatty" and how some people take that to extremes.
now I'm not here to judge anyone and i am a great believer in "all shapes and sizes" and "be who you want to be" and the unhealthy obsession with weight can go in different directions from skeletal, to morbidly obese for the "more cushion for the pushin'" crew.
just be healthy and don't hurt yourself or encourage others to hurt themselves, or even convince your partner into changing their body for your gratification.
but also undrstand that some body image obsessions are genuine illness's and are not there to be mocked and ridiculed. or heralded as a good thing.
small side note, which in no way is meant to be offensive but as of late I've seen ...on a few different sites and social media by lots of different people.
women of a larger size who one second post things about being curvy and fabulous and then next post about what new diet fad they're on.
"oh I'm glad i DON'T have a thigh gap" to "I'm trying slimfast and insanity", so which one are you? happy to be bigger and embracing it, or just bitchy and bitter and hitting out at women who have what you want?
be big and beautiful and healthy, be curvy, be athletic, be thin and healthy, but be what you are and own it or change it without being bitchy about other body shapes.
take care of yourself, don't try insanity when you're morbidly obese, start smaller or you'll give yourself a heart attack, don't binge on fatty foods if you're trying to gain weight, and for the love of all that's good people PLEASE STOP BUYING INTO FAD DIETS!!!!! they're bad for you!!, be sensible, research whats best for you, and stop counting fucking calories.
eat well, have treats, work out, start small.
little personal note;
i eat what i want to, i do have take away, i do drink alcohol, what i did do... i limited my dairy, i eat lots do fruit and veg, i research all my food, i limit CHEMICALS, and i work out, and i walk almost every time i need to go somewhere. and i've gone from just atop the word "obese" on my wii fit to being just above the word "ideal" (which is just above half way down the bar).
plans;
i just started back at pole dancing which i will be doing more different classes in. i also want to go back to zumba, and do the insanity work out, as well as free running later when i have time and money. i am also interested in doing something possibly like kick boxing.
(i am no authority or qualified instructor, i do not think i know "how to" because i am only part way through my own journey, please always research and cross reference food, dietary requirements, contents labels, and work out's specific to your goals and health requirements, in some cases consult fitness instructors and or physicians)
p.s skeletal is NOT a flat tummy, and morbidly obese is NOT curvy.
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