01.12 am, fresh start

it's 01.12am and after much internal debate, i decided to blog again. when i came back here after a few years i noticed blogs i had written a long time ago, not wanting to make myself emotional i selected "delete" on every single on of them.


now I've been told that my posts on Fb are sometimes too frequent and or too long but also find much heralding of my "rants", people saying they love my rants, love my writing and my debate points and instead of sharing inspirational quote after truth theory article, they'd love to read more writing.

I've also been asked, had suggested to me and been out right damn told... you should write, your biography, or stuff for a magazine or something... i love to write and it's been something that has brought me great pleasure personally and academically.

now I'm not saying, I'm any good at it but sales of twilight and 50 shades of grey show that the general public don't give a flying fuck about your written literacy ability anymore so ...fuck it.

i...just now was also reminded by a sparked memory induced by the list of people's blogs i follow here, that blogger is how i was enticed into the world of you tube. where i have hundreds of videos not all available to everyone...no Kim Kardashian, Paris Hilton hidden ones...sorry, I'm 32 years old and although I've lost over 3stone and am gradually settling into my own body...no one wanna see that but my man.

my you tube, i am only now starting to take seriously, I'm in the process of catching up with backlogged footage due to technical issues and life's little dramas (some big ones too), removing things i don't want to be on there anymore, sorting my playlists, making things slowly more public, plans for my display wallpaper, updated bio and channel intro are in process gearing up to monitise.

forgive my broken paragraph structures...unless you read 50 shades etc...cuz you won't have noticed a damn thing in my writing flaws, or mixing of classical English and colloquialisms, short hand, and slang. but it is 01.26 am now, as i stop and start and correct my stupidly fast typing that catches extra and wrong letters in words that aren't needed, and ponder the next sentence, the next random bit i think... "oh that could go in here"... so anyways...

writing... brought me back here, a hint/nudge/...shove by a few people at my exhausted excuse for not becoming any type of author or journalist , of ;
"i dunno where to start"...
"why not blog, sometimes people make money off doing that too, blogger is like a job now"
Not that i think, starting this will mean everyone that reads it will instantly go ;
"wow she's such a cool writer i wanna throw my hard earned cash at this 'donate button".
I'd be surprised if few people read this and hella fucking surprised if i make anything from it let alone a living...but if you wanna... feel free it'd be graciously and gratefully received ...and desperately needed (big cheesy grin inserted here).

But no i guess I'm doing this for me, to think...i am actually writing, that i am writing my rants, my opinions, my views, my debates, my passions...and my biography per say in diary entries, I'm doing all the things friend say "why don't you" (as well as my other ventures we'll get into some other time).

so...where now for this 1st entry...the obligatory introduction i would suppose would be appropriate... how do i do this...

like an A&A meeting...?
"hi my name is Bat and i am a non recovering goth, currently in therapy at the school of hard knocks and being broke to break me out of my spoiled brat syndrome"

i don't fucking know.... oh and Boils & Ghouls in-case you haven't noticed, this bitch comes with a foul mouth, you have been warned so don't complain later.

or...
at the time of writing this i am 32 years old, a mother, in love, happy...most of the time.

or do we do ye old;
name, age, dob, nationality, occupation, religion, political view, relationship status, parental status, chest-waist-hips, height, dress size, shoe size, pets, inside leg measurement, what color are your panties , when was the last time you had sex, whats your favorite position????


side note... who stole the "h" outta Yoghurt and the "u" outta Colour? no one sent me the fucking memo!!!!

i guess you'll get to know me through my writing, and if you're on my you tube, and... if i fill out the damn bio lol. but yeah, HI! I'm Bat...welcome to the madness...